Last.

Start of the semester was boring. And very sad to say, my timetable this semester wasn't as beautiful, in the sense that, I don't really have similar class time with my friends. I'm too much a weirdo to go around making new friends in my last semester of studies. People in my class might turn out to be a bunch of first year students, which, I totally cannot stick with. So, WHO NEEDS NEW FRIENDS?!

Anyway,
Life was good for a month. Too good that I didn't want to come back.
Although my last week there was tough. Tougher than I thought.
Heart breaks, endless tears, arguments, exhausted.
Never knew crying can be so exhausting. Particularly, crying for three days straight.
It exhaust me out so much, that I can only lie down on my bed and do nothing.
Bluey was my only companion.

I realise, no, we realise the importance of US to each other.
I guess I would say, I think of 'us' instead of 'me' in the future. I never imagined my future with no 'him' in it.

I said I couldn't believe him anymore but yet again, everytime I said that, in my heart I want to trust him. I guess choosing to trust really made my life easier.
But I told myself, I will not trust blindly anymore. And I will demand for explanation and transparency.
I'm a happy person now.

And so the time to go back to reality have come.
I felt empty when I came back to Malaysia. It was so easy to get used to him. Being with him ALL THE TIME for ONE WHOLE MONTH was good. We've never stuck been together for a month.
Although we had arguments and stuffs, but I liked being by his side. Liked it a lot.

I guess it'll take me another month, or maybe longer, to get used to being NOT able to stick with him 24/7
Perhaps studying might distract me from him.

I'm glad to say, I think our love grew. Stronger than ever.
And after all these, it became so clear to me that, I want him to be in my future.





p/s: Joyce, thank you for constantly asking me what's wrong, although everytime I avoided answering. haha. Its really hard to express everything through words. Try asking me face to face. I might tell you. =P But beware, I might cry or curse the hell out of me. I prefer cursing than crying. lol